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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 16 Nov 2009 --> its all too late. ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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woke up from a nightmare. right in time when weili msg me.. right after i reply weili, he dose off -.- while i was replying weili, another msg came in.. its from another person, tommy: "i miss you" dunno how should i be feeling.. why do you have to wait till now den say u miss me so much? isnt it all too late? 我又哭了.. its NOT becos i still miss you.. but it's because im feeling the PAIN again i was brought right back to the moment we broke up.. the words u've said. the moment we had. when u decided & was very determine of turning away from me. when u CHOSE to walk out of this r/s. can u stick to ur decision & determination like last year? dont come back.. dont bring another pain to me. i dont want and dont need a 2nd disappointment. i'm sorry, i have to say what had been done is super hurtful. once bitten, twice shy. i dont need another hurt, tommy. just remember the day u walk out from me.
* it's all too late *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:43 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 15 Nov 2009 --> darlingg anabel ~ ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@10:34 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 14 Nov 2009 --> darlingg lynda ~ ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:37 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 12 Nov 2009 --> darlingg grace ~ ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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by right should be meeting tommorrow..
BUT i got cg meeting on a friday instead..so meet her up today!
this stupid darlingg of mine 6pm reach town when i say meet 7!
mus be initial D la, gonna give her summon!
anyway today is lk my "belated birthday celebration" after 1 mth & 8 days! wahahaha~ its been ages since we last meet..well~ let the pictures do the toking DINNER VENUE: TAKASHIMAYA PASTA CAFE!
 
FOOD: FAV. CAMWHORE PLACE: GRAND HYATT TOILET!
 
 
YOUR TRULY CAMWHORING
 
STARBUCKS SESSION 
  
aftermath, darlingg drove me back
* wooohoooo *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:20 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 07 Nov 2009 --> church day! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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got wake up by vincent's msg, THANKS!
he says that even though no mtg with Ian but there is fellowship with the rest!
LOL.. no mtg with Ian as he was away for a holiday..
prepare cabby down to church to meet vincent up..
oh ya~ only him no one as "the rest"
haha~
den he pangseh me go give bible study!
thanks again! =\thank God, time passes quite fast..
off i went to fetch Kris from expo..
haha~
today is Robb thompson.
He share about RISING the BAR (Standard)
he question us too..
GREAT WORD!i came home really early today..
i feel lk resting..
feel lk slacking..
dun feel lk doing anything.picture!Yaowen! Kris!
* rising my standards *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:02 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ LOVE ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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as i began to listen to different story of my fren. i was brought into the memory lane i've been thru. no one truly knows and understand how i feel. no one on this earth will ever. each and everyone has our own story. i hate the losing someone feeling totally. when the saying are true.. "once bitten, twice shy" let me be sure of what i want its not that i wont get into a r/s anymore.. am really jus waiting for the RIGHT one. that God will nod His head & smile at US. * the heart matters *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@10:53 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 03 Nov 2009 --> leaders mtg. ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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it was held at EDB building located at jln bukit merah. hmmm.. things are not cfm yet.. still on trial basis.. still in a dunno what to say mood =/ but God has His plan i believe & trust! LET'S JIAYOU TOGETHER!
* staying positive.. *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@10:40 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 02 Nov 2009 --> my darlingg lynda ♥ ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:26 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 31 Oct 2009 --> a day of much thinking.. ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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knock off after work, rush home prepare cabby down for leaders mtg..
Ian shared about being an amour barrier for our leader.
many of us( 2nd in line leaders) feel that we are not up to "standard" yet..
feel that we are too raw..
but we were wrong..
whatever our leader have, we dont have BUT same thing,
whatever we have. our leader dun have..
because God create everyone of us different.
Have a beautiful mind!
ITS TIME FOR ME TO GROW AGAIN! after discipleship as usual went makan-ing with the leaders..
still manage to crap alot even when im feeling feverish..
after makan-ing, time to go Q up for seats..
den prayer mtg..
then service.. today Pastor kong preach about DREAM!Caleb was the e.g that Ps use.
num13
Dream should nv be a gd idea but God given
Visualise and lock my mind.
Dream finds me, not i find my dream but i see visions.
There's GOOD n BAD dreams
- worthy of effort
- waste time
How do know if its a gd dream?
#1. does my dream fits with God's will?
Num 13:1 -God GAVE
It doesnt matter how much i want but God's APPROVAL tat matter.
1chro 29:11:12- God determine us! Not ourselves.
rom8:31
#2. does my dream fit with my talent.
deu34:9 - joshua is a thinker. He learn alot of ting.
God blessing align us with our gifts
rom12:6
#3. does my dream fits with ppl's need.
num13:27-30
jos14:7, 10-12
jos15:14 - he killed 3giant @85yrs old!
phil2:4
Whats your dream?
after service went fellowship with peeps..
den off jo, yw, alvin & me went to cathy for starbucks..
sat down and discuss about lots of stuff..
a day of much thinking...
life is all abt decision making indeed.
ya i'm super sick now again..
having fever needa rest!
anyway.. thanks ppl for commenting on my new style..i love this dress very much too..something different..changing my style!pictures taken in church with HUIMEI!
 
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:36 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 28 & 29 Oct 2009 --> DROP! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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i'm down with fever again. very sick!
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@2:33 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 27 Oct 2009 --> name this post urself.. ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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I believe everyone of us have a certain standard or criteria of our partner.
mine will be:
# Christian (Love God & Love people)
# Handsome (good complexion)
# Dress well & style
# Neat
# Taller than me
CLEAN CUT IS A MUST.
We wanted/ is searching for them so much when we did not see/met one yet.
But when one actually APPEAR, it seems to be TOO PERFECT to have or rather match up.
Where did our confidence go?
Witnessing so many living example of r/s failure or even experiencing it myself..
Everything jus lead to a BIG QUESTION MARK.
Guys whom i've passed, i wil always have a SECOND thought again..
isit jus another game?
even if it's not a game, HOW LONG CAN IT LAST?
i could no longer bring myself to believe in a LONG LASTING r/s..
witnessing 5-8yrs r/s also can end up to NOTHING.
Comparing the fascinating, dreaming-ly sweetness love during the process with the REALITY..
it jus make me feel that no matter how sweet the love is during the process is NOTHING when one person choose to WALK OUT from the r/s.
words will ultimately be EMPTY.
promises will ultimately be EMPTY.
memories are only painfully painted.
i wont deny that u're totally right abt i will miss you after parted.. but u're too perfect for me.
i dont want another dream.
* love.. i cant comprehend *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:59 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 26 Oct 2009 --> darlingg bel again! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:40 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 25 Oct 2009 --> shopping & ECP with Jeremine ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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afternoon head down to Hougang..
Mic's grandpa's wake.
stayed there till about 4 plus..
off me & jo went for shopping!
we shop super super long..
IT WAS VERY FUN!
we played all the lame stuff..
the chicken especially! ohhh GROSS!
hahha! TIME TO CHANGE STYLE!shopping!    aftermath, rush home to meet Jeremine..
he fetch me go dinner!
i shop till forgot to eat =x
hehehehes~
it was quite late lk 10.30pm..
so BEDOK 85 we went!
BA CHOR MEE~
after makan-ing..
we went ECP to chill..
till about 1.30 am~ ya & i wanna trick him with the new stuff i have... but he was too smart & expose me immediately! ): in the end he still tried it.. hehehe!
im happy today!
* nice moment are always short! *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:19 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 24 Oct 2009 --> being a TRUE WORSHIPPER ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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people cant believe or trust in a God whom cannot be seen or touch. therefore last time in the bible, people make carvings of "gods" if God is a God of EVERYTHING, we only need ONE! why are there so many "department"? some are for finaces, some for peace, some for fertility & many more.. who is the servant & who is the God? many people will want to have a visible God in our house.. WE place it in a place we wanna put for e.g: under trees or on the alter" who is greater? that "god" is greater or we? but how come WE choose where to put them? WE decide what to offer up to the "god". again.. Who is greater? we or the "god"? but how come WE anyhow offer food to them? some even offer infants to "god" if God is a God of love? why do you need to sacrifice a child? understand who are you worshipping!
* blown away by the message today *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@10:38 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 23 Oct 2009 --> REBEL ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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was so relunctant to go rebel today..
aniway went down cos it's gary's birthday..
got myself a scratch on the face by sabbie..
SUPER PAIN but nvm.. had a new friend, Jeremine. hang out most of the time with derrick & friends..
got to know another new friend, Nicolas.. he is super tall!
LOL!
aftermath went mac for breakfast!photo!
with sabbie & friends!
  
* rebel tonight *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@2:28 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 22 Oct 2009 --> unwilling me.. ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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an emperor edict has causes me to have no choice but to switch work desk.. i hate it.. because of switching this office desk.. i had a big quarrel with my head of dept whom always dote me alot.. i hate this co. & i dun enjoy working! if for me who keep using facebook & msn.. could do much better job & faster.. than dun those who dun.. then why cannot use? hate this kind of senseless change.. shifting here & there! out of all my unhappiness.. take a look at my new partner! MR. NAIM! he joke, he crap & he eat alot too!
* soon.. *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@10:14 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 21 Oct 2009 --> catching up! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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it's been LONG, real LONG since i meet up with Weidi..
my SECONDARY SCHOOL MATES!
had a great time sitting down, chat about the past..
those hooligans memories.. hahaha!
all has already turned out to be jokes.
it is also my belated birthday dinner treat too..
thanks weidi!
to mr desmond: "pls finish ur work on time, dun last min la!"
i tot u hated me so much that u dun wan to meet up with me lehs..
LOL!
anyway i'm really sorry about what i did to desmond..
i've once hurt u, u hurt me back today, we are equal now!
muahahaha, my good friends forever!
shall meet up with all of you guys soon photos!
   
* nice catching up with friends! *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:57 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 19 Oct 2009 --> last min dinner! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:41 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 18 Oct 2009 --> Reflect. ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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so many things to do. i wanna focus more on my people now.. i need to feed them with God's word (solid food) i need to sacrifice more of my time.. i need to do alot of stuff still.. i need to let them feel more significant.. i need to love them more! i need them to accept me as a leader! all the I NEED! but im jus a vessel for God.. Jesus fight the battle for me, i pray!
* God is faithful *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:35 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 17 Oct 2009 --> FACE IT! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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as usual have discipleship with Ian @ 3 today..
so had lunch at subway with Bryan & kang wei
after that discipleship, i was about to walk to my usual seats to look for my cg..
i was telling roy: "shifu, i v long nv see mr. L alr.. only keep seeing his gf"
the moment i separated with roy, i saw mr. L..
God mus be playing game with me!i have to walk to the security area to drop offering..
he is ushering there! no choice i ask limei acc me..
man the feeling is lk weird..
finally when svc start, we saw each other face to face..
he smiled, i tot everything was alright finally.. but i was wrong.. today my cg celebrated my birthday..
becos last week to little ppl, jo dun wanna shortchange me..
this week the outfield & duty ppl are back! as usual birthday songs!
THEY MESS UP MY HAIR!
 
PRESENT PRESENTATION!    LOOK HOW MUCH I LOVE THE CARD!
MY HEARTFELT SPEECH!
 
 
JO'S SPEECH to me! * She's suan-ing me *
me & jo!
me & kitty!
Yours truly!      aftermath.. some members went for night cycling..
me & jo went city hall to fellowship & chat..
we chatted alot of things.. had a wonderful time of sharing..
finally dajie is ready for PHUTURE!
met her up.. down for Samuel's birthday @ velvet Dajie    mr L. only club once a mth..
he was there at phuture..
when he saw me, he sort of siam away..
come on, FACE IT when u're a man ok?
dont be childish.
if i can face it, why cant u?
* things cant be natural anymore, when the unnatural has taken place. *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:00 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 16 Oct 2009 --> Bryan the Bastard! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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look at the mess of my work desk again!
holiday holiday holiday! *CRY*
it's my belated birthday dinner with Bryan the Bastard!
SWIZZLER it's been ages since we met up!
Thanks bastard! shall go HKG with him one day.. His dad is CX flight pilot la, he go there super cheap! CHAO KENG!  
* dedicating this post to the bastard.. *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@10:21 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 15 Oct 2009 --> STRESS! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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STRESS~ TOO STRESS I NEED A GETAWAY!
after work had a POWER PRAYER MTG!
it's been long since i last pray like today! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
* CRYING OUT FOR HOLIDAY! *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:10 PM
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˚◦°°❤ ๑۩۞۩ 11 Oct 2009 --> My Birthday with 3 V.I.Ps of my life! ๑۩۞۩ ❤°°◦˚
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login to facebook, flooded with birthday wishes..
hearts warming & melting!
Thanks to all!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
i'm finally 20!  precious day with 3 V.I.Ps of my life
# ROY (Shifu)# TAN# JEREL (Beloved paiidang)
met up with Tan first..
man~ he is late! in the end he say im late!
HE IS LATER! we started arguing again =/
after that he said something nice.. so forgiven! WAHAHAHA!
went to have mac first as he knows me too well, i haven ate anything! chat alot at that moment its been long since we last met face to face & talk. most of the time we talk on phone. he always hear me crying, complaining or ranting
hahaha! he is my trash bin
GUESS WHAT?!
we went K-ing! JUST THE BOTH OF US!
wahahhah bring the house down!
CLASSIC MOMENT!
Shifu came about 7 plus 8pm..
it's DINNER TIME!
ITALIAN RESTAURANT!
Shifu's!
Tan's ang moh MUAY FAN!
Mine & my ESCARGOTS! YUMMY! ^^ (ordered by Tan) 
I only ate half of my pasta..
Tan say: "ehs, you should eat mine, its your type of food"
hahaha~ he really knows me too well la..
there shifu goes again, di siao me & tan =/
after eating, beloved called & say he wanna eat..
so he cabby down look for us..
from there shifu drove us to geylang for another makan time!
"EXCURSION" too!
picture @ geylang! food, i nv even eat a single thing (picky)
   
Me & Beloved (taken by Tan)
SCANDALOUS?! no way.. we walked thru small alleys..
alot of ppl looking at me.. therefore for my own safety
they suggested that i hold anyone of them..
of cos choose my beloved la hor? LOL
actually is bo bian.. Shifu too short
tan, erm dun wan la..
best choice is beloved, tallest & manly.. (REPENT LTR) 
Shifu!
Tan!
Beloved!
the topic during our makan session is interesting..
when u wanna woo a girl..
ask her: "DO YOU HAVE A DREAM"
someone actually get together becos both of them had the same dream of being together..
but still broke up.. LAME! -.-
wat a dream?! LOL..
SO.. DO YOU HAVE A DREAM TOO?! HAHA.
aftermath is EAST COAST AREA!
this is the 2nd "EXCURSION"
geylang nth interesting today.. ECP no cars also!
LOL!
end of it, head home! I felt so blessed whenever i meet up with this 3 impt people.
non stop INSPIRING & ENCOURAGING me.
My help in times of need.
Thanks for always being there for me.
* contented birthday *
➸ xυє'єя (｡◕‿-｡)
xoxo
@11:25 PM
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